Wednesday. It’s that time again, where I write a sad entry because something so good, has come to an end. I’m currently sitting at the Zurich Airport in Switzerland, awaiting my flight, which leaves at 7am, and it’s only 11pm, to London where I have 2 hours to check-in and enjoy my last moments of London until who knows when. It was 2 years ago when I first embarked on my journey around the world, between that time and now, I fell in love with traveling, living in another country, leading a different life, with different people. I don’t know if me leaving home is a sort of addiction like people have with cigarettes. I just love the rush to pack up my bags, start things all over again. Saying goodbyes, getting use to another location, with different people, doing different things.
It’s another chapter that I’m closing, but this time, it’s a bit different. I’m officially done with college/university. I’m actually getting teary eyed as I’m writing this, letting go of something I’m finally use to…back to the normal life, well maybe not normal because I have no clue what is going to happen when I get home. Those 4 (and a half) years that I been anticipating, wondering what happens after I leave college, it’s all about to take flight now. I can’t freely travel anymore, I have to “settle down” ah, what an ugly phrase! Sometimes I feel that I’m not one to settle, I’m just always looking for a new journey, you know; to live life, just make my time here on Earth worth it. I feel like stay put in one place is such a hard thing for me. I just want new adventures all the time. I can honestly say that the last two years, I’ve done more than a lot of people…and I’m soo grateful to be able to grasp the opportunity and to utilize it. I’ve learned so much, grown so much…become way more independent than when I first entered college. I don’t even think words can describe what I’ve been through, so I’m not even going to try. Honestly, I’m afraid of a boring life at home…I don’t know what the future holds for me, I’m just following where the wind blows me. I started applying to jobs on Christmas, oh what a fun thing to do on Christmas day isn’t it? I hate goodbyes. It’s so hard saying them, not knowing when the next time you will see them is. You find something so good, then you have to say goodbye. Seriously, what is this shit? I don’t know if I’m happy that I found happiness or mad that I found it so late. Was it just thrown at me when I’m about to leave so I can be all depressed about leaving? I will take it as a fun time and that I should be happy that I experienced such great friendships and maybe can finally call London, my…3rd home. It took two whole months for me to fall in love with London, and only one month to enjoy the love I had with it. I’m honestly glad I gave CAPA a chance, when I initially scoffed at the program, thinking how is this program any good? I guess sometimes you have to give chances to people and things. You never know what might happen. I’m sure when I leave London on the plane I might just cry. I mean I wanted to on the tube..when I moved outta my flat! Life’s crazy and totally not predictable because if you asked me a year ago where I would be at this moment? Hell, I would not have said to you Switzerland. Actually I can’t believe I’m in Switzerland.. doesn’t even feel like it… crazy how things work… life…Until the next chapter of jetsetter life..I hope it won’t be too long when I can blog about my daily activities again.
The wait was so boring...sitting in the airport practically in the dark..I moved to the terminal after I felt a bit weird sitting at the restaurant place I was at..creepy people so I decided it might be safer in the terminal. It was dark..but there was some light and the janitor cleaning the floor with those machines...good thing my ipod kept me company.. at 5am all the lights came on and I was finally about to check-in my luggage. Finally off to USA!!!!!!!!
The wait was so boring...sitting in the airport practically in the dark..I moved to the terminal after I felt a bit weird sitting at the restaurant place I was at..creepy people so I decided it might be safer in the terminal. It was dark..but there was some light and the janitor cleaning the floor with those machines...good thing my ipod kept me company.. at 5am all the lights came on and I was finally about to check-in my luggage. Finally off to USA!!!!!!!!
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